Sometimes, I feel really tired and I start to question myself…what am I doing this for?

For money?

But I’m not after a high end lifestyle, and I don’t think I’m particularly high maintenance.

For fame?

I don’t particularly want to be famous, I really just want to do a good job, to contribute meaningfully to the business, to the brand.

To personal satisfaction?

Perhaps. I take pride in what I do; and constantly want to be better, if not the best. Every piece of work should involve best effort in fulfilling the needs of business and balancing various demands of stakeholders.

But sometimes, this can be a difficult and frustrating act to juggle, especially if both are not aligned.

Today is just one of those days when I’m not sure why am I doing this anymore, why am I trying to make sense out of some seemingly impossible asks, questioning if I should just give it all up.

But walking away feels like defeat, like I’ve lost to the challenge…something that I cannot accept.

Not ready to throw in the towel, but trying to overcome it seems to be testing my limits.



花言巧语的人, 我不怕。
欺善怕恶的人, 我也不怕。
我最害怕的, 是会唱歌的人。

有些人, 有些事, 都一言难尽。
但就有好多歌曲, 歌词都能把一些复杂的心情, 述说得丝丝入扣。


忠言: 好好经营你的30-47岁 ~ æ¨æ¾œ

今早,在脸书看到一则生活稿。 这份稿的作者是杨澜, 诉说着我们要怎样好好经营我们的30-47岁的岁月。

读了之后,觉得对于暂时迷失的人,它能是个很好的提醒 – 提醒着我们不要在继续迷失或堕落,赶紧找回方向,继续前进。

个人感言:读了虽然没有大彻大悟,但还是有一言惊醒梦中人的感觉。 希望能把这份感觉维持得久一点。在这里, 想把它与大家分享。

[生活] 杨澜:好好经营你的30-47岁



2 、储蓄友谊


3 、播种善良


4 、懂得音乐


5 、避开两种苦


6 、学会承受


7 、保留感恩的心


8 、热爱工作


9 、善于学习


10 、享受运动




A long way

6 years ago, I took a leap of faith and got into a relationship. 

5 years on, it took alot of courage to step out of that.

Now, one year on, I’m trying not to be afraid, to tell myself to enjoy and cherish each experience, each moment as they happen, whether fleeting, short-lived or lanced with future possibilities. 

Savour the moment, cherish the memories. 


Living life, better.

In the blink of an eye, we’ve now come to yet another new year. Welcome to 2013, ladies and gentlemen, the year I’m going to turn 30.

Do I feel like I’m 30? No, not really.

But how exactly is being 30 suppose to feel like? I imagine it’s feeling all grown up, always knowing what to do in all situations, always feeling tired since folks at 30 supposedly don’t have stamina like younger people, especially when it comes to nights out.


Nah, not really.

But now, I find myself wanting to do all sorts of ridiculous things that I had never done, not even when I was a teenager.

I was always the sensible teenager – the one with a good head on her shoulders, they said. In my younger days, I’ve skipped over several phases of life such as idol-chasing, skipping school…can’t think of anymore now.

However, I now find myself indulging in a youth fallacy.

Not too long ago, someone introduced me to a Korean variety show, Running Man (RM). Initially, the overall concept of the show sounded really lame (adults tearing off each others’ name tags). But, after I’ve watched a couple of episodes, I was hooked.

The overall concept described above was still correct, however, what made the show thoroughly entertaining was the RM cast. Their live commentary, their banter on show proved more than sufficient to overcome the language barrier, enticing me to become a fan.

It was through this variety show that I came to know Kim Jong Kook. Great singer, good entertainer and, based on the RM show, he seems to be someone with wits and good values. Doesn’t hurt that he looks cute and (ahem) strong too.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been so taken with someone and his works.

This interest has also motivated me to want to pick up a new language skill (Hangul) to better understand the overall K-culture, conversations and also, to better appreciate his works. In my recent trip to Korea, I’ve also purposefully went out in search of his albums.

The above, to you, may not seem like anything wild.

But to me, it’s the most I’ve done that’s closest to idol-chasing.

Some say it’s an attempt to cling on to younger years. Others say it’s a reaction to some recent major changes in my life.

I say that it’s just me throwing off some of the stringent controls I’ve placed on myself for so many years to indulge and live a little….within reasonable limits.

This year, I’m not sure if I want to set resolutions. Maybe just one.

I want to live my life, better.