absolute-ly missy

i posted this question to a friend of mine moments ago.

upon 1-10, how much do you trust me? (0-none, 10-absolute)

guess how much he rated me?

a whooppinggg 9. i’m so flattered. thank you.

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the last week flew by so quickly, i could hardly remember what i did. i only recalled 2 of my weekday night. on one weekday night, i spent it in some relatively sleazy ktv pub, drinking with my ex-colleagues and their friends. i even learnt how to play american poker finally! yay! another night was thursday night, where i was at the old-usual hangout, wala wala.

haven’t been there for some time. the crowd hasn’t changed and neither had the music. it was quite good seeing some familiar-yet-distant faces again. but i think, the band and the hoegarden attracted me more.

somehow or rather, i’m not really in the mood to blog. tonight i can’t seem to capture my own mood. it’s floating away somewhere. i don’t really know what i’m thinking about or how i’m feeling.

something’s bothering me. i just can’t figure out what is it yet. once i’m in-tune with myself again, i will be able to know more.

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i finally caught up with some of my other hallmates tonight, xj and jas. initially, i thought the meet-up might be awkward as we were never very close in our hall-days. however, i soon realise that it was quite fun to just catch up, to talk about our old days…and to dream about our futures.

and all was done over japanese food! yay! yummy!

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regarding work, this industry is just so fucked up. i’m not sure if i can survive in here. even if i can, i’m quite afraid that i’ll become one of them (heaven forbid!).

nb lah.

i had been invited to the heineken green room party by one of my friends. it was held at the helipad at harbourfront and frankly, i thought it fell short of my expectations. the setup was not very impressive and the atmosphere was just not energizing enough. but that being that, the crowd was pretty good though.

i didn’t stay long as i had to join my friends at a club, so i didn’t get to hear gang starr spin….!!!

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at the club

i hit the club at twelve plus and went for the bar straight. what was clubbing without alcohol? besides the group i was with, i met lps with her friends too.

both of us were getting drinks at bar when another familiar face appeared right behind us. guess who??

it was uncle wong! hahahaha.. he was here with his friends as well, which was a surprise as i thought he was going to be at zouk. with uncle wong around, it was booze and five-ten again… scary! *lol*

the whole night was spent going around to different groups of friends catching up and didn’t really dance alot..maybe just for an hour. but frankly speaking, i was so tired that dancing seemed to be abit of a chore!

i’m getting old! *wailssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*

yay… arsenal won!!! 2-1!!!!

take that, you liverpool people. muahahahahhaha *evil laughter*

anyway, i’m feeling pretty lighthearted right now. just came back from a ktv thing with my ex-co where i think i spent more time drinking and playing five ten than singing.

i didn’t go there to drink anyway. i went there to accompany a ex-co (also a friend). he just broke up with his gf…poor boy. i think this period is really hard to get over…and he really needs people to keep him company right now.

i can still remember that i was in his state not too long ago…although circumstances were not quite the same.. but what we felt were mayhap a little similar..

what he needs now..is not someone to tell him what to do….

he needs someone to listen to him….although he might be saying the same things over and over again. he needs someone to be around him. to talk crap..to drink..to smoke.. to just waste time together. to keep him from being alone.

being a friend, i will definitely do all i can.. to the best i can to help him through this period… cos once it’s over.. he will be able to stand on his own again!

gogogo… i’ll pray for you my friend! and i will try to see you through to the end… because i was blessed with friends who kept me company when i was at the same phrase..

lps..uncle wong…gracey…vanna…nad…

thank you.

and now it’s my turn to pass this blessing on.

i might not have the correct things to say….i might not be the wisest around.

but i know my ear’s always ready..and my tissues are on hand. i will stretch out my hand to grab you….if you allow me to.

be strong my friend! we can get through this together!

tonight’s the match….and i just realised that my cable doesn’t have the fucking sports channel!!!! bloody hell!!

well, it’s half time now..and the gunners are leading by 1. yay!

and who doesn’t use the fuck word nowadays. bloody hell.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

so there.

yay! today’s a good day…

meeting up with the “uncle” and ps can be one of the most fun things to do!

“uncle” brought us to this realllllllllly good japanese restaurant that serves reallllyyyy good chawanmushi. absolutely fantastic. nothing comes near! i think this is one of the best japanese restaurant i’ve been too. even the deco and waitresses wins other places hands down.

i’m addicted to the chawanmushi there. hurhurhur!

yummy!

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after dinner, it was drinking time! no surprise, after all, i was out with “uncle”! we decided to forgo our usual watering holes and decided to go upscale – wine. i’m not a big fan of wine, but whatever “uncle” says i usually won’t contradict.

the place (some well-hidden but relatively well-known place) was packed but luckily we managed to get a table..bottles were opened, wine glasses were filled, smoking started and our nonsense chattering began.

i always feel relaxed after going out with them. somehow, i feel that i can be myself. i need not fear judgement nor second guess what their intentions are.

happy night… light-hearted. even if it’s for a night, it feels so bloody good. yay!

*jumps around in glee* hee hee.

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long-awaited friday! but i have to attend a course on saturday. bloody hell, burn my sat and still don’t give me time off. nb.

i feel like i’m living in a limbo state.

i can’t feel my existance…i’m living but i’m not. it seems as though i’m just going through the motions of life everday, but not really living my life.

limbo state.

and stop asking me what’s wrong already. i would have told you the first time you asked if i wanted to. if not, get off my back.

you can’t help anyway.

i know who are the ones who care sincerely and who are the ones who do not, but it’s just that i choose not to acknowledge and act upon that knowledge.

yes, so stop trying to be kaypoh. if you really want to help, you can start first by not asking so many questions which i don’t want to answer.

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i used to think that wisdom came with age. apparently not. some of the people i know are acting so bloody stupid that i can’t stand it. stop that bullshit. you piece of childish-kokanathan-piece-of-shit.

if you want to mess around, do it far away from me and my friends so at least i don’t have to endure the knowledge of your foolish actions. ignorance is bliss in this case.

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i feel drained. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP. i don’t want to talk. if you want to help, just drink.

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